Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Here she comes......

Its been four months now since we have seen Wesley. The longest time we have been apart in 22 years. It has seemed a lifetime! Her flight gets in at 10pm tonight. I told her I would be in baggage claim and to look for the person with the biggest smile on their face. That would be me, in case she has forgotten what I look like :)

This past week has seemed maybe the easiest since she left. I have been so busy with Christmas shopping, working at the store, and keeping the house clean for showings. We had a showing yesterday and got very positive feedback, but still no offers.

 I did finally sell my kiln to a very nice lady. It was odd to go downstairs the day after she picked it up and look at the empty space where it used to be. giving up my kiln was really depressing. I have given up so much this year......

Work continues to be great. I love the people I work with and I love the marketing and merchandising responsibilities I have. It feeds those control issues so well, haha. It does limit my social time though. I see very few of my friends anymore. I only have one friend that really stays in touch weekly. One friend came by the store last night, and even then, I had very little time to spend with her. We were so busy.

It's odd how much my life changed this year. Many positive things, but many changes I didn't really want or ask for and I had no control of. Not having Wesley around has been way more challenging than I expected, and some days I felt as if I were in mourning. In a way, I guess I was. Sad for the loss of a little girl I will no longer have, sad to not see my grown girl experiencing her life as an adult. My chronic arm pain has really changed the way I do things. It is the most annoying thing that has ever happened to me. I have found some new exercises though that I feel are working. Vicki, I did get the arnica, it is great for relieving that constant throbbing, and I have started consuming turmeric with everything. It seems to be a miracle root and I intend for it to get my arm better! Anything to avoid surgery. Thinking my body knows best and I will let it heal itself in its own time. A friend of mine told me it took her two years of therapy to get relief from her shoulder impingement. Oh boy!

So, looking forward to a holiday just hanging around here, enjoying Wesley's very short visit and then I have added more hours and responsibilities at work for the new year, so we will see where that leads..... hopefully it will be a good 2016!


cookingwithgas said...

Yes! Merry Christmas! I hope it's filled with love and laughter.

PotterMiller said...

What a beautiful picture! Have wonderful holidays!!

Reading you blog and so many parallels…. I will be getting some of my old life back as I have organized myself out of job and they have cut classes. Changes are coming yet again here, argh.

Michèle Hastings said...

I know exactly how you feel about seeing Wesley after 4 months. I savor each moment I have with my Danielle, which is about twice a year, more if I am lucky. Enjoy your holiday and keep it close to your heart.

Vicki said...

Me too - it is weird to see the empty space where my oft used kiln used to stand. I rarely go into that area anymore, as I still find it sad. Gotta move on...

Transition. It takes some strength of mind.

I'm so glad the Arnica is helping, Tracey.
And, yes, turmeric is a great anti inflam'.
Healing naturally does take time, and you're doing great.
How I see things is that we are organic beings, so it makes sense to heal ourselves as organically as we can. Give our bodies the chance to utilise and absorb natural medicine, rather than fight invading synthethics - of which so many are based on naturally sourced plants anyway.
I'd rather go right to the original source than have lab made meds.

Sending healing thoughts and wishes to you.