I haven't been feeling the pottery thing for a couple of weeks now. It's not a bad thing, just taking a mental break I think. It's been an odd feeling, I know I need to get busy making some things, but I don't really feel the urge to do so, I go out to my studio and I clean, organize, shuffle things around, but not making anything wonderful. Today, my friend Susan had a great photo of an alter in her house on her blog, and it occurred to me that Wesley has an alter in her room where she meditates every morning and although I have lots of things from nature in my studio as we all do, I don't have a specific location to honor nature and peace and creativity. So, I made myself a little alter thanks to Susan's inspiration. Earth: a rock, some shells, and a seed pod, Air: incense and a bird's feather, Water: a tea bowl filled, Fire: a candle. I lit the candle, the incense, put on some great music and just sat still for awhile. I looked at my stack of books and the first one I came to was Zen and the Art of Pottery. I always enjoy this book, so I picked it up. Let me share the first passage with you. It clearly identifies what I know a lot of us go through:
After a time of decay, comes the turning point.
The powerful light that has been banished returns.
There is movement but it is not brought about by force
the movement is natural, arising spontaneously
For this reason the transformation of the old becomes easy.
The old is discarded and the new is introduced.
Both measures accord with time, therefore no harm results.
Clearly, I am never going to be a production potter with this mentality towards making work, but I have to have my sanity, and that requires quiet time, time with my family, and time away from clay. So, I have resigned myself to the fact that I work slowly, I make few pieces, they sell, and then I make some more when I want to. That's just the way I roll and I am lucky that the AP values Gerry and his work and he gets a check from them each week. When we start depending on me, we are going to be really thin, because there will be very little food! As my work gets stronger and I find my path, this attitude may change, I'm working on that. I would like to help Wesley get through college and make the contribution to our household income that I used to make. We'll see how this goes......vacation first, then back to it in a more serious way I think!