Thursday, April 26, 2012
she found new Steinbeck and Faulkner books at the thrift store and she left to go back and finish up her first year of college, rested and peaceful.
We had a great breakfast with whole grain pancakes and tea and then we gave her these wonderful pieces of art from my friends.
She got a bit teary and I got a bit teary and I was so happy to have a child that appreciated gifts like this instead of the latest greatest electronic gadget.
As parents, Gerry and I have tried to give Wesley an appreciation for great music, great books, great art, nature, long walks, and photographs. We have taught her the importance of well crafted work, integrity, honesty and the value of true work and being true to who you are. I think we have done well as parents. From the time she was a tiny little girl, we respected who she was as a person, we gave her a voice, and valued her opinion. We brought her into the world in a quiet and gentle way. When I was pregnant, I would turn off all the lights and put in this CD Mickey Hart made of a child's heartbeat inside it's mom accompanied by instruments that he played. It was called, Music to be Born By. I played that CD for Wes recently and it brought me right back to the time when she was inside me. After she was born, we played CDs of nature sounds in her room as she slept and I kept her room very dim and gentle. I believe these early influences truly affected the way she gently moves on this Earth now and it makes me sad that we don't insist that children be brought into this world that way. It should be every child's birthright to come into this world quietly and gently and have a peaceful world, but sadly, for so many it's not that way......
We love this piece of land, the apple orchard, the peach trees, the lilacs, the grapevines, the pond, the duck. Unfortunately, the owner put up the ugliest plastic house on this land, with cheap building materials and a strange floor plan and then they smoked cigarettes inside so the house stinks of stale cigarettes. If you stand and look outside the windows and hold your nose, you can love this place, but what to do? I feel shallow being such a snob about this house when there are people that are losing their homes every day. But I am a Libra, and we wither and die if our environment is unpleasant, that's just the way it is. Having been an interior designer for twenty some years also does not help my snob factor when it comes to houses. It's not that I want a mcmansion. Quite the opposite, I would love a 100 year old farm house, back when they built things right and plastic houses did not exist. I want a fireplace, not a metal box with gas logs in it, I want wood floors, not vinyl wood look, I want cabinets that are not so shallow that my dishes won't even fit in them. I want windows that are wood frames, not metal.
What has happened to us as a nation? We have put up shoddy construction all over this land, we educate our children poorly, we elect idiots to run our government, we poison our food supply with GMO seeds and growth hormones and chemicals, we inject the land with toxins to blow out the gas beneath, we take a pill for any ailment because the TV tells us to, we feed our kids junk, and we have all but lost true journalism, our newspapers are becoming a thing of the past and no one is reporting honest and true stories anymore. No wonder we are looking at this land. We want to move out there and shut the door and make it all go away! But I can't find a way to live in this ugly space. Do I just suck it up and do what I can to make it look better, or do we pass and look for something else? We want a piece of land that will sustain us because we can no longer count on our food supply to be safe. I spend so much time in the grocery store now reading labels, I am so glad the farmer's markets are back in action so I don't have to go there, but there are times we have to get things at the grocery.
It's all so sad and there are so many that are not educated and don't even know or care what is happening to their bodies as this country poisons everyone. What about them!?!?!
Whew.... that feels better, just had to get that out! Looking at this property and the possibilities has me all stirred up!!!
Hope all of you have a great rest of the week. I have done nothing but enjoy my family, but that is a gift and I am blessed that I can do that. I really got to get some work made though......