Saturday, August 25, 2012
Don't Judge Me
This paying a fee to apply for a show thing is bullshit, and I am no longer going to participate. I have been invited to be in five shows this past year, all great shows, beautiful galleries and I am honored to have been invited. I didn't have to pay anyone to be invited to these shows. I paid a fee to apply to four shows, got in two of them. So I am out $75 plus the time it took to put together the application and submit the photographs. If I applied to all the shows that were on the last arts council email, all of which I would like to apply to and I could probably do well in, I would be sending in about $200 with no guarantee that the juror will like my work. And I would get that miserable email telling me they didn't like me :(
And that is what it all comes down to. Whether a person likes your work. Well, if you like my work, I want you to BUY it, I don't want you judging me and then deciding I'm just not quite the IN girl this month. And let's face it, there is a bit of a "club" here in NC with pottery shows. Paying to apply for a show and then getting turned down just sucks and I don't enjoy opening up that email that starts by saying, I regret to inform you..... Ok, so I regret to inform YOU, but you can have your pay to enter shows. I'm not interested in beating my poor little fragile ego up anymore. I hate the emotional roller coaster of selling and showing my work. From now on, I am making work, putting in my Big Cartel shop, doing the fall shows, maybe a spring show if I can find a decent one, and making beautiful pieces for the galleries that support what I do and sell my work. Done, done, done with the jury thing. If you have a gallery, and want to have a show that includes my work, by all means invite me, I will say YES! But there will be no more applications being filled out on this computer, what a waste of my time. Not to mention the time it takes me to convince myself that my work is good and I don't suck. What is it about those rejection letters, they just send your mind into a downward spiral of self doubt. Well, I know my work is good, I continue to grow my sales each year and I get lots of compliments from people whose opinion matters to me. I'm just so tired of those moments when I start comparing myself to other artists that I know are better than me and then wondering what I'm even doing all this for. I do it for moments like last week, when I finished the barn with the wooden spool and I sat back all warm and fuzzy with a big stupid grin on my face. And when it's finished and someone falls in love with it, this will have all been worth it! So, SCREW juried shows that you have to pay to apply to!!!!